I THINK OF THAT SOPRANOS EPISODE WHERE TIME IS A HORSE,
Ja'net Danielo | Poetry
how Ralphie sets it on fire, tries to kill time, how even after it’s dragged away—all limp hooves & singed fur, chained bones beneath a burlap blanket—it snakes its way through the paddock dirt to Tony’s dream where he rides it backwards in his living room, tells Carmela he wants to come home & she says there are some non-negotiables, that the horse must go. When I ask my husband if he thinks time exists off Earth, he says we’d not only have to leave the planet but the universe to escape it & I think of that verb tense in Italian for a hypothetical in the past, the grammar of impossibility, & how, last night, when my cousin came to me—still alive—I tried to tell her I’d heard there was nothing to fear, that she shouldn’t be scared, but my chest was a gallop that swallowed my voice & all I had was breath & all I could do was wake up & live.
Ja’net Danielo is the author of the chapbooks This Body I Have Tried to Write (MAYDAY, 2022) and The Song of Our Disappearing (Paper Nautilus, 2021). A recipient of a Courage to Write Grant from the de Groot Foundation, a Professional Artist Fellowship from the Arts Council for Long Beach, and the Telluride Institute’s Fischer Prize, her poems have appeared or are forthcoming in Diode, Raleigh Review, Frontier Poetry, and In the Tempered Dark: Contemporary Poets Transcending Elegy (Black Lawrence Press), among other places. Originally from Queens, NY, Ja’net lives in Long Beach, CA. Find her at www.jdanielo.com.Tengyart by Unknown